Happy Girl Now

Didn’t except my life had a dramatic change. Life is really unpredictable. Always thought JW would only be the guy that I’ll marry to but turns out he has changed and not the Jammy I used to know.

I was depressed, was heartbroken, was despair about relationships. How am I gonna let someone to know me that well again?

Well, God did sent some nice guys for me. Dating was good and I am happy to have a companion but then I know what I need is someone to love me, to treasure me and make me feel special and not just accompany.

When God closes one doors he’ll open another one. Even a better one. Who will expect someone that I didn’t even contact with for 12 years, or shall I say we didn’t even really had any conversation before remembers me! From a “hi” then lunch and then chats.

Are all these fated? God’s perfect plan? I don’t know. All I know is I’m very happy with him now. With all the sweet things he had done, small surprises.. Really made me feel I’m special to him. ^^

This will be my new phase of life. I’m excited to walk with him. Really. I love him. HY, thanks for asking summer abt me. ( •ॢ◡-ॢ)-♡

What I want to say is God is there. He really is. Just time and patience and faith. It’s not easy, but don’t give up. It really came as a surprise.

Hates it when happiness only last for awhile and here come test. I am sad! Really sad! I’m sorry I’m not strong.. At least I can runt here! I need to cry … Again… Hate it when I’m feeling weak!

A fresh start.

Gonna miss him loads. BF gonna be at new site and his working hours will be expanded, which means time spent together will be reduced and I will not want him to sleep late too. =x 

Of course I won’t mind cause I know he’s working hard towards he’s future.. -_-” just hope he can be more focus and be more consistent in whatever he’s doing cause he can do things by impulse quite often. OMG! Why can’t I say these to myself instead??! >.>

Maybe this may be a test for us. Trying how much we can compromise to each other? I will wait patiently lor.. as long as his heart has me, knowing I’m waiting and will love me even more! ^^ hehe~

I am facing a huge phobia in my new rs and I hope it won’t affect me or us! Fear of being hurt, fear of knowing someone new again, fear of being left alone, fear of trusting someone else and low self esteem. Lots of negative question like what if here and that.. I’m gonna clear all these out of my head in other to start my life afresh. If not it’s kind of ruining my life bit by bit!

Even though things were bad previously, I’ll never forget how God showed his love to me, by blessing me with lots of loving friends and a new guy in my life, which happens to be my Primary schoolmate! How fantastic!  ^^

M I the right one?

Why do we have to have conflict over trivial matters? Why are things getting tougher when both of us getting closer? Getting confused. What shld be done to make a rs works?